Last weekend, I volunteered and spoke at the BIL Conference. I first started with BIL in 2014. I got onstage and spoke in front of people for the first time. It was scary and invigorating all at the same time. I left that stage wanting to do it again and again and again. And in the past year, I have spoken in front of people a number of times. I joined Toastmasters and started polishing my performance.
Fast forward to 2015. I volunteered and spoke at BIL again. I worked hard in 2014 and even harder this year. I am getting more involved with the conference behind the scenes. My speech was longer and more polished than last year's. I even had visuals this year!
All these good things are happening. My speaking career is moving along - slowly so I have to do something about that - I got praised for not only my speaking over the weekend but also for the work I have been doing. I should be on the top of the world,confident and self assured. I feel great with all the praise but I am still seeking reassurance. I am like a praise whore, I can't get enough. And why is that?
Because I don't have the self confidence I should. I have accomplished a lot - going from waking up partially paralyzed to getting rid of my cane. I have published five books and am beginning a career as a motivational speaker and author. I have done more than many people. I have to realize how valuable I am.
And I think many of us are in the same boat. We look at the accomplishments of others and fail to see how great we are. In my local library there are over 300 books on developing self confidence. I think it is time I started to read some of them.